God Changed my Heart before He Changed my Direction

In my last post, I've shared about leaving my 9–5 job and choosing to build Must Seed from the ground up.

At the same time, I'm also planning my wedding, which is now only a few weeks away.

Leaving the security of a stable income this close to our wedding was a risk. Most people would probably say it wasn't the smartest financial decision, and maybe on paper they're right. But as I've said before, I trust in God's plan more than my own.

Throughout our engagement, we've experienced different seasons. Some have been exciting, others incredibly joyful, but as a Catholic, I would say the hardest has been spiritual warfare.

It doesn't stay constant. It comes in waves.

When those moments come, they can be overwhelming. I can only speak on my experience and perspective, but I found they affected me more deeply than they seemed to affect my fiancée. Looking back, I realised I wasn't thinking clearly. I became anxious, controlling, and started trying to carry everything myself instead of preparing my heart for marriage.

As Catholics, marriage isn't simply a celebration, a ring on your finger, or a wedding day.

It's a covenant with God.

It's the moment two lives become one.

"That is why a man leaves his father and mother and is united to his wife, and they become one flesh." — Genesis 2:24

Marriage is a lifelong vocation of love, sacrifice, and choosing one another every day.

A few months ago, something began to change.

I committed to praying the Rosary every night before bed. I prayed more throughout the day - not only asking God for help, but thanking Him in ordinary moments too.

Slowly, my heart softened.

I found more peace. I noticed more gratitude. I began seeing hope where I would have previously seen fear. It's difficult to describe, but I became much more aware of God's presence in my everyday life.

When I made the decision to resign from my job, I didn't rely only on my own thoughts. I stepped into the bathroom multiple times throughout the day just to pray, asking God to guide me before I made such a significant decision.

As I grew closer to Him, something else became clearer.

The vision for Must Seed.

For so long I knew I wanted to build something, but I couldn't fully understand why. The closer I grew to God, the more everything began to make sense. Must Seed was never just about creating clothing. It became about sharing faith, encouraging others, and documenting what God can do through even the smallest act of trust.

Looking back, I don't regret any of it.

I'm grateful for every challenge, every season of uncertainty, and every moment that brought me closer to Him.

Because through it all, God knew exactly where He was leading me.

And that's a little of the story behind how the vision for Must Seed became so much clearer.

I'm so excited to continue sharing this journey with you.